Awake and seeing

IIt's amazing how God has woken me up this summer. I really feel like I was asleep this whole past year, just trying to make it through, never really invested myself. I just wanted things to change around me because they weren't right, but I don't think I ever believed that I was the change that was needed. 

It's like for a year I looked at the world I all its shapes and colors. Some of them were quite spectacular. They might have left me breathless for a moment, but then I just moved on by like a sleepwalker, continuing as I had been.

But now I realize that colors and shapes are good for nothing. You can't eat them, breath them, love them and they can't love you back. Now I am not looking for any shapes and colors. I'm looking for where shapes and colors can be changed. For opportunities to have an affect. For instances in which I can praise, love, give, share, and give thanks, for the utmost purpose of drawing attention to God and drawing more into the family through Jesus Christ. My eyes are open and I'm learning to see where I am rather than just where I want to be, to see how I can change my surroundings rather than how someone else should.