Feeling full of JOY!

I woke up this morning at 4am. No, I did not see sun until I let the children into the classroom at 8:20 because I got to school at about quarter to 6am after getting ready and driving the 45min commute to work. I left school at about 6:30. Ate food with another teacher (pizza). And arrived home at able 8:30pm (16.5 hours after I woke up mind you). AND I AM GOING TO GO TO BED PLEASANTLY JOYFUL!
This is such a blessing, you don't even know. I was not expecting to enjoy this at all - especially not this soon. I mean I have students who have issues, students who are saying bad things about each other, who are shouting out in class, students that don't know anything. And ... I'm okay with it. With all that's going on, I'm liking my students. I am glad that my class is my class. I am enjoying trying (and I mean trying - it's only day 2 so I don't feel like I can say succeeding yet) to train my students to become more than what they are now. I am finding things to praise them about. I want to find more things to praise them about. I've got students who are writing notes to me in my mailbox telling me random stories and telling me that they are nervous about reading as a subject or that they are glad they are in my class (only 4 girls so far but still!).  And that was after I have told them not to do things that they are doing wrong. One of them had already earned a silent lunch and then apologized to me in the letter. Even the ones that I'm not quite sure what to do with add their own little flavor to the class.
I mean really... this is all coming from the girl who three months ago in Michigan was saying that she was in the middle of her "quarter-life" crisis (no one let me get away with mid-life crisis so I figured @ 24 it was a 1/4 life crisis). And now I'm actually loving or at least so far enjoying what I got my degree in and what caused me so much panic and pain during my internship and my time as a parapro for summer school.
There is NO answer other than GOD!
It makes me think of that song: "More Like Falling In Love" by Jason Gray... (I've italicized the part that is standing out to me the most right now)...

Give me rules, I will break them
Show me lines, I will cross them
I need more than a truth to believe
I need a truth that lives, moves, and breathes
To sweep me off my feet, it’s gotta be
More like falling in love than something to believe in
More like losing my heart than giving my allegiance
Caught up, called out, come take a look at me now
It’s like I’m falling, oh
It’s like I’m falling in love
Give me words, I’ll misuse them
Obligations, I’ll misplace them
‘Cause all religion ever made of me
Was just a sinner with a stone tied to my feet
It never set me free, it’s gotta be
Deeper and deeper
It was love that made me a believer
In more than a name, a faith, a creed
Falling in love with Jesus brought the change in me, it’s gotta be

I really do think that I am finding out what it is like to fall in love with your God and His purpose. I'm actually releasing myself and I've stopped trying to make my life happen and it's so much more enjoyable.
Ah, It's so good. :) Thank you all for your prayers! God does hear and he is faithful! I'm so glad that I can see how faithful he is right now. So glad!