By Faith

Today I was listening to Hebrews on my way to school. One thing that was impressed upon me was that God once was pleased temporarily by incense, gifts and sacrifice, but now he's pleased by the fact that we follow his will and do what he asks us to do. This is part of why we do not do the things that are permissible but not beneficial.
God was at this moment working on my heart because when this was followed by the "Hall of Faith" where the ways in which God's followers have walked in faith I heard God asking me if I am willing to walk in faith. Abraham was so willing to walk in faith to the point of killing his own son - trusting that God will be glorified, he will keep his promises (Isaac was the only descendant he had and the only proof of God's faithfulness at this point). So this morning I hear God calling me to release my life to him. Do I trust God enough to give me a job and purpose that I enjoy? Do I trust that he will either change my heart so I love where I am or that he will provide something different? How much do I trust him?
So today I am going to step out in faith and publicly declare my trust in God.

Lord, you know my heart and who I am better than I do for you knit me together. You know the plans you have for me and you promise that they are good plans, plans for a future and for me to prosper. I trust that you will provide what I need. I ask you to forgive any selfishness or selfseeking tendencies I have. I ask you to forgive my doubt and to protect my mind from the enemy and his words that twist and deceive. I will trust you rregardless of whether or not I ever get my M.A. OR PhD or if I ever leave Florida or if I ever publish a book. I will trust that you will provide my family with what we need for each thing you lead us to regardless of whether or not we actually save anything. May you work in my heart so in my inner most being I see myself as last and least important. May I be your humble servant who trusts you and walks where you lead even if I can't see my two feet in front of me - for when all seems lost you are still on your throne and you still love me dearly.
In your most holy name, Jesus Christ. Amen.