Living with hope

Sometimes I look toward the day to come and I would think it safe to say that I'm not looking forward to it.
My expectations are not that I'm going to have a great day nor that I will see something extraordinary. I do not think about how God will use me or what impact I will make on the people around me. I think about how frustrating my day will be or how much more I'd rather just stay in bed. I'm finding that in my daily existence I'm living without hope. Hope is to look forward to the things yet unseen. But I'm focused on the things I see every single day. How much of that is a self-fullfilling prophecy? I don't know. But today I pray that I may live with great expectation of what God will do in my life and how he will use me in the lives of others. May I live with and ever abiding hope.